"Will You Marry Me"

The words he spoke today made my heart beat faster. " I don't deserve you. I don't deserve your beauty. I don't deserve your love. I can't make you happy." But he does. He really does. "I don't deserve you, I'm not good enough for you. You're perfect for me. Marry me?" I said "No. Because we don't know what we're doing." And he said " Babe. Marry me?" Then I said "Yes. But we don't know what we're doing." And he said "Yeah we do. We're engaged. We're going to get an apartment or a condo. Have a 15 foot pool and then get married. After we get married, I'm going to carry you to that room, and kiss you. Then kiss you again. And kiss you again. Sooner or later we'll have two beautiful children and you'll be a great mother. How does that sound? With you, everything will be perfect. You're perfect for me. I love you." Although I said no the first time, he made me believe all these things could, and possibly will happen. I don't know why, but I do believe he actually loves me. I believe he means every word he says to me. I may be attached, and I may be falling hard too fast. But I fucking love this kid to death, and I'd do anything to protect him. I just thought I'd make a blog. I've had very good days lately, I wonder how long my happiness is going to last. Michael has a HUGE part in my smiles lately.

10.07.09 Lets Make This Last Forever, Shall We? ♥